Do you come here often?

So I have a question.
For my new Admirer.
Do you make a habit of this?
Making moves on other women?
Has your long marriage been sprinkled by affairs?

This didn't seem to be new to him. In some ways he felt like a 17-year old boy, but in some ways it seemed very natural to him. Putting his hand on me. Spreading his legs more so he could press his thigh against mine. He seemed very relaxed about it all, no underlying guilt of "Oh my God what am I doing I've never felt like this before how can I betray my wife like this but the feeling is too strong I can't resist..." and so forth.

Which disappoints me. I admire his family. I admire any family which seems close, the various generations sharing interests, embracing differences, all smiles and love and rejoicing.

Not that I have any right to be superior. Given my own history of infidelity in both marriages, and my current illicit relationship that's been going on for over 11 years now (wow, really?), who am I to judge?   Still... maybe it's because it feels as if it came out of nowhere. And because it's within this small town community. A betrayal of the community as much as anything else.

And because, yes, it does feel good to be paid that kind of attention.

Which doesn't change how I feel about the man I deeply love, and who occasionally takes the brave step of saying in so many words that he loves me.

Comments, anyone?
If anyone is out there?