Wednesday, December 12, 2012

She sulks

It's true.
I'm sulking.
I'm not proud of it.
But I won't deny it.

I'm like a deflated balloon, one minute bobbing around cheerfully on the end of my string - on the end of my chain, to be more accurate - and the next minute I go splat, all energy gone, falling asleep over my laptop. For real. Nodding off. Staring at the screen and nodding off and wishing a message from the joy and torment of my life would pop up but knowing it won't. And it doesn't.


Because life gets in the way.
It always gets in the way for us this time of year.
But this particuar year is worse than most.
And there's a good chance he can't visit this weekend.

Sometimes this arrangement sucks.


strivingforpeace said...

oh-- I'm so sorry

I'm in the same boat.


sin said...

Me too. And I hate it too.

AtiyaLuv said...

so sorry to hear that...
I went through that for some years, i think he did me the favor when he left me last i am heart broken and alone...not a great combination at this time of year..


Anonymous said...

No disrespect intended, but, are the four of you involved with married men? If you are, doesn't the loneliness outweigh any other benefit of the relationship?

oatmeal girl said...

Thanks for everyone's sympathy. It's not something he's doing to be mean or manipulative. When we switched to Saturday meetings, from the beginning he did make it clear that he couldn't guarantee me every single Saturday. most of those were because it was I who had gone away or been sick.

Sometimes, it's just that life gets in the way. Inescapable obligations. We have all had them.

He doesn't come t do me a favor. He doesn't begrudge me the time he gives me. He WANTS to spend time with me. This is a two-way relationship.

Anonymous asked about loneliness. I'll answer that in a separate post - because it is certainly a valid question.