Sunday, July 5, 2009

Yes, I'm OK

Well, more or less. I didn't realize I'd been absent for so long! But every few months I have to take this nasty progesterone for a week and a half, which makes me tired and dull-witted and depressed.

Plus, I've been playing on craigslist. I've been feeling very lonely on weekends, when I don't have as much contact with my Master, and when I don't have a sweetheart with whom to spend time. Being on nasty drugs just makes it worse. So I write these odd ads. Sometimes they are deliberately obscure, just to be obnoxious, because I am angry.

I am angry at the stupid and lazy men who answer my ads.
I am angry that I'm alone.
I'm angry
and I cry.
Because I'm on these stupid drugs I cry

I'm angry and I cry because they aren't John.

In fact, even John isn't John by now... this fantasy of a man, memories of only the best parts... what I want is the impossible. What I want is a perfect combination of the philosopher and the sadist. Which of course is not likely to happen.

Smart and sweet and sadistic and sexy.
Confident and dominant and available.

But I keep trying.
And I am endlessly disappointed.

Still, I never give up trying...


Orlando C. said...

I'm glad you're OK, Oats. And I'm glad you're back.

Paul said...

OG, keep looking, he'll be somewhere.
Loce and warm hugs,

mamacrow said...


I feel the urge to serenade you actually... 'oooonneee Daaaaayyy your priiince willl coooommmmeee'

(I always find the urge at the point in the lyric to jump up and offer tips... I mean, if he dosn't cum soon he's gonna leave her right?!)

oatmeal girl said...

Orlando, you do call me the cutest things. See why I have a bit of a crush on you even though you're submissive and married and far away?

OK, Paul, I'm inviting everyone over and we're going out on safari. Make your reservations now.

mamacrow: oh dear... your words reminded me of these, in Swedish from a booklet I picked up in Sweden a long time ago promoting condom use: en dag kommer prinsen... och nä han kommer, se till att det är inuti en kondom..." Or, in English: Some day your prince will come, and when he does, make sure he's wearing a condom.

mamacrow said...

og - you made me laugh out loud! no mean feat - i've been sent early to bed with raging toothache xx