Sunday, July 5, 2009

Yes, I'm OK

Well, more or less. I didn't realize I'd been absent for so long! But every few months I have to take this nasty progesterone for a week and a half, which makes me tired and dull-witted and depressed.

Plus, I've been playing on craigslist. I've been feeling very lonely on weekends, when I don't have as much contact with my Master, and when I don't have a sweetheart with whom to spend time. Being on nasty drugs just makes it worse. So I write these odd ads. Sometimes they are deliberately obscure, just to be obnoxious, because I am angry.

I am angry at the stupid and lazy men who answer my ads.
I am angry that I'm alone.
I'm angry
and I cry.
Because I'm on these stupid drugs I cry

I'm angry and I cry because they aren't John.

In fact, even John isn't John by now... this fantasy of a man, memories of only the best parts... what I want is the impossible. What I want is a perfect combination of the philosopher and the sadist. Which of course is not likely to happen.

Smart and sweet and sadistic and sexy.
Confident and dominant and available.

But I keep trying.
And I am endlessly disappointed.

Still, I never give up trying...

5 comments:

Orlando C. said...

I'm glad you're OK, Oats. And I'm glad you're back.

Paul said...

OG, keep looking, he'll be somewhere.
Loce and warm hugs,
Paul

mamacrow said...

(((Hugs)))

I feel the urge to serenade you actually... 'oooonneee Daaaaayyy your priiince willl coooommmmeee'

(I always find the urge at the point in the lyric to jump up and offer tips... I mean, if he dosn't cum soon he's gonna leave her right?!)

oatmeal girl said...

Orlando, you do call me the cutest things. See why I have a bit of a crush on you even though you're submissive and married and far away?

OK, Paul, I'm inviting everyone over and we're going out on safari. Make your reservations now.

mamacrow: oh dear... your words reminded me of these, in Swedish from a booklet I picked up in Sweden a long time ago promoting condom use: en dag kommer prinsen... och nä han kommer, se till att det är inuti en kondom..." Or, in English: Some day your prince will come, and when he does, make sure he's wearing a condom.

mamacrow said...

og - you made me laugh out loud! no mean feat - i've been sent early to bed with raging toothache xx