Like Paul, I might be selfish and want you all to myself but I understand that it will deepen your submission to your Master when he decides to share you.The curious thing is that it's the other way around. As my submission deepens, as the sadist draws me further and further into willing acceptance of his most manipulative and challenging plans, I yearn to cooperate in activities that, when first broached, excited me on a fantasy level but left me extremely nervous when I contemplated actually obeying his orders. There's a floating sensation to it. My submission is a stream, and I give myself to its gentle flow as it carries me ever closer to the waterfall that will catapult me into my delicious doom.
It also sounds like he enjoys keeping you waiting. I assume it only builds the anticipation. Just thinking about it must keep you wet all the time.Yes, he likes to keep me waiting, but he also enjoys the long, detailed planning process for its own sake. He keeps me so aroused that it is painful. As for him... think of it as an embroidery project, and imagine the delight of seeing the picture take form as one stitch after another is added to the cloth. And then picture the moist stains that sink into the colored floss, from his desire and mine.