Thursday, September 17, 2009

You made me say I love you

I rested my head on your belly.
You made me say I loved you.
Your body had crushed mine into
the bed. I love it, I'd said.
I love your body.
Again, he demanded.
Say it again. I love
your body. And then again.
I love your body, I love
your cock, I love . . .

Say it.

And sobbing, I said it.

I love you, I said. And again
I love you. Crying, I love you,
your cock in my hand, my eyes
joined with yours, I love you,
I wept.

And you came in my hand.

9 comments:

Aeon's Angel said...

That was Very moving. Very emotional.

cutesypah said...

all I want for you, my friend, is your happiness. I hope you cried tears of joy.

hugs and love,
cutesypah

nancy said...

Beautiful, simple and clear.
Tears are just that~

mamacrow said...

wow. just - wow.

(and he BETTER be nice to you! yes I know he's a sadist, that's not what I mean... you know what I mean. I hope!)

oatmeal girl said...

Thank you, Aeon's Angel, and welcome. The experience itself was very moving and very emotional.

Ah, cutesypah, my protective friend. I am very happy. For one thing, I have no illusions to be destroyed. I know what the limits are in what I can ever be to him. He is very open and honest, and if anything perhaps holds back conveying whatever he may allow himself to feel for me.

As for what kind of tears they were... this is not the first time I have said I loved him. But never this way. Never did he ask it of me. Never did he demand those words from me. he did, however, many months ago, give me permission to have these feelings by naming them. By telling me that he knew I was in love with him. And then I was able to accept it and own it and give the love its proper place within the relationship.

And the tears? They cannot be defined as one thing or another. They were tears of fullness and giving and vulnerability and yielding and fierceness. There was a fierceness to them. A strength. This is what I feel for you. For all of you. Not for one part while not accepting the other parts. I don't cut you up into pieces of what suits me and what doesn't. I love the whole of you. Live with it.

nancy - yes. Tears are clear. They say what they want to.

mamacrow - damn straight it was wow.

And you know, he really IS nice to me. Take my word for it. Within who and what he is, he really is nice.

Paul said...

OG, this post makes my heart sing, just as your words sing.
Long may He give you what you need,
I told you way back that He loves you.
Love and warm hugs,
Paul.

mamacrow said...

'He is very open and honest, and if anything perhaps holds back conveying whatever he may allow himself to feel for me..... And you know, he really IS nice to me. Take my word for it. Within who and what he is, he really is nice.'

yes, that's what I mean - and the conclusions I have also come to - he just better continue to do so, or else, ok?! (wow, that's probably the most impotent threat ever issued but hey, it's heartfelt! xxx)

Florida Dom said...

You do such a good job of descibing your love for him May it only deepen in the future as your relationship grows.

FD

DL's toy said...

Wow... breathing slowly... i felt every word of that. It was moving, emotional, and very, very beautiful. Kudos to you.
xoxx,
toy