Comfortable Silence

The comments about my post on whether or not phone sex is obsolete have made this seem the right time to share this extended e-mail intercourse (in all senses of the word) between the philosopher and me. And then when I pulled it out, I realized that it dates from April first of last year, making this the perfect day to print it here.

It began with 2 e-mails from me on a Sunday morning. And then early that afternoon, I received the most delicate of messages...

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April 1, 2007

April

The cats don't care about late night trysts.
Their needs are simple, their patience limited.
I am their slave, as I am yours. Without complaint.

Popcorn blossoms exploded over night.
Flannel crept up, exposing another bloom.
It is April. Life is irrepressible. I am yours.

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What's really missing...

Do you know what the real problem is with a cyber relationship?

Well yes, of course, there's no actual physical contact, definitely a downside. Tho the sex does make me feel incredibly close to you, and while frustrating on one level is quite different and more fulfilling than mere masturbation.

But it's the silent companionship that we can't pull off. because we have to be writing back and forth in order to keep the connection open. I feel like I'm with you between messages, but it is still an active focus. No sitting together with coffee and bagels and the Sunday NY Times. No curling up with a book while you write a chapter. No watching a movie together.

I remember one time after N [my friend and former housemate] got her own apartment. I was watching one of our favorite TV shows ("House" probably) and called her right after the introductory segment. She knew it had to be me and picked up. We talked during the ads and then stayed on the line, watching together, making occasional comments and chatting thru the breaks.

So instead I just hold you inside me. Not the same. But still something precious.

i am your kitten.
i am your selkie.
and you make my life sweet.

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12:20 PM

Comfortable Silence

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mmm...

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. . .

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:->

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;-)

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mmm....

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Cold here :-(

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'cause you need a snuggle...

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:-)

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[visualize kitten crawling into your lap and licking your nose before curling up]

purrr....

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:-D

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mreowr?

snuggle snuggle snuggle

purrrrrrr...

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*sighs with contentment*

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ditto...

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*wonders what his kitten is wearing*

*If anything*

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* thinks: God! He's incorrigible! *

:-)

[visualizes pink-purple long-sleeved Henley shirt, waffle fabric. Top 2 buttons undone. Reaches up and undoes a third button...]

[feels wet spot forming in crotch of blue panties under blue jeans. starts to burn as flames shoot out...]

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*leers openly and unapologetically*

*stares very hard at kitten's chest, trying to see if her nipples are visible*

*places one hand on kitten's thigh*

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groan....

[ if they weren't visible before, they sure are now. ]

* removes bra to improve the view *

* puts shirt back on because S--- [current and virginal young housemate] is home for now, before heading down to Virginia for the usual Sunday night dinner with best friend and family. *

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*grumbles under his breath about S---*

*slowly moves hand up thigh*

*licks lips at the sight of your rigid nipples*

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* starts breathing faster *

* thighs open of own accord *

* HUGE wet spot appears in jeans *

* eyes become unfocused *

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*kneels down in front of kitten*

*undoes button, zipper on jeans*

*puts hands on both thighs*

*starts rubbing*

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[S--- pops in to chat about her progress in cleaning her bathroom and how the entire Irish side of her family is alcoholic. says she'll be back between 9 and 10. and leaves.]

indefinable sounds, little whimpers

* leans back in chair, hands lying limply on armrests *

resistance is futile

* blues plays in background while Marko, neutered, tries to rape his sister *

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*shrugs, silently agreeing with S---’s appraisal of the Irish*

*grins wickedly*

*begins to tug jeans down, over hips*

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* raises eyes, gazes openly and unapologetically at delicious magnificence rising before her *

* mouth waters *

* pussy waters *

* breath comes even faster *

* grins back *

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*kisses kitten on mouth. hard, deep, savage*

*hands fumble at kitten's shirt, trying to remove it*

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* opens to the kiss, thrills to its animal urgency *

* doesn't help with the shirt, wants to feel the violence of his lust *

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*impatiently removes kitten's shirt, popping buttons, ripping seams*

*having stripped her from the waist up, turns his attention to her nipples, testing their hardness with his tongue*

*hands run up and down her back, pushing her closer. . .closer. . . closer. . .*

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* hips start rocking back and forth *

* eyes look up pleadingly *

* back arches, thrusting breasts up *

*thighs spread wider *

"please..."

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*removes kitten's jeans and panties in one rough motion*

*leers suggestively at her obvious wetness*

*stands in front of her*

*grins evilly*

*gestures towards his erect cock*

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* naked, slides off chair and rises up onto knees before him *

* in an attitude of worship, takes him into her mouth *

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*cradles her head in his hands, as he gently thrusts in and out*

*trembles at the touch of her warm, skilled tongue and lips*

*gets harder and harder. . .*

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* marvels at this sweet, powerful man who knows how to make love to her mouth without making her want to fight it *

* almost weeps at the feel, the taste, the hard cock, the soft skin, his tenderness, his force *

* licks the precious precum off the tip *

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*looks his precious kitten in the eyes, as he whispers how special she is*

*fights to maintain control*

*gasps as he loses it*

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* heart melts at his words, although she's heard them before, and will eventually believe them *

* can tell that he is about to cum *

* welcomes the passion that he shoots into her mouth *

* swallows with joy *

* in the background, Honeyboy Edwards sings: *

Pretty baby, can’t you ride with me tonight
Pretty baby, can’t you ride with me tonight
I want you to ride with me while the moon is shining bright

Pretty baby, don’t you like my automobile?
Pretty baby, don’t you like my automobile?
I want you to ride with me, baby, you know how good it make me feel.

Well, baby, can’t we feel good tonight?
Well, baby, can’t we feel good tonight?
Can’t we feel good while the moon is shining bright.

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*collapses to knees as his legs fail him*

*lays his kitten back*

*spreads her legs*

*begins licking in long, slow strokes, tasting her wetness, swallowing her sweetness*

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[is touching allowed? please?!?]

* gives herself up to sensation *

* emits many moans and whimpers *

* reaches down to his red head, so like her own, starts to stroke his hair but soon is clutching at it, as he buries his mouth and tongue into her flooding gulf *

* isn't quite in this world *

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(are you naked?)

*warms to his task, flattening his tongue and licking hard and wide, then pointing it, and licking deep. . .DEEP*

*Grasps buttocks to control the bucking of his kitten's hips*

*licks more*

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(yes, of course i'm naked! and desperate!!)

* LOTS more whimpering! *

* becomes even more excited when he takes control of her buttocks. Is always excited when he takes control of her body. when he impresses his ownership upon her. *

* moan and groans... *

"J---? i... "

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*rocks her hips back forth, in time with his tongue, each forward motion driving him deeper into her throbbing cunt*

*he ignores her panting and moaning, her attempts at speech*

*pulls his tongue out, and takes her clit in his mouth*

*sucks on it like a hard candy, enjoying her squeals of pleasure*

(Touch yourself kitten. . .do it. . .)

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yes, Master.

thank you, Master.

please...

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* she cums with such loud cries that all up and down the block people stop what they are doing, and are seized with insurmountable lust. 9 months later, the street sees a baby boom that stumps statisticians. *

[i'm sorry, i meant to wait for the specific order to cum. but it was stronger than me. i was wetter than you have ever made me in all these 2 months. and now i'm lying here feeling your presence next to me. I can look up into your eyes. i feel your arms around me. we defy the laws of the universe...]

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*loses himself in the wild cries of his cumming kitten*

(I will forgive your illicit orgasm this time kitten. . .but just this once!)

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mmm....

* she smiles and snuggles *

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*strokes his kitten’s head, rubs her belly, plants a row of kisses up and down her back*

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* sighs deeply *

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(are you still naked?)

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(yes, of course. you didn't say i could get dressed…)

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(Are you cold?)

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(only a little. i went into the guest bedroom and am on the bed under
a blanket. Marko joined me and is working hard at giving himself a
bath. he must have been inspired by your descriptions of licking…)

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(Then I will keep you naked a bit longer)

*takes a great length of rope out from under the bed*

*shows it to his kitten*

*does not try to conceal his intentions*

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* startled out of her post-orgasm stupor by the sight of the rope, starts breathing heavily again *

* is both alarmed and aroused *

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*Stretches his kitten out on the bed, legs and arms spread wide*

*expertly ties each limb to the four corners of the bed*

*takes a moment to enjoy the look of bewilderment and anxiety on his kittens face*

*makes a big show of rummaging under the bed for a "special item"*

*finds it*

*shows it to kitten*

An ostrich feather.

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* panic! *

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*grins yet again, even more wickedly than before*

*carefully scrutinizes the naked helpless body splayed out before him*

*takes his time deciding where to begin, pretending not to see the growing concern on his kitten's face*

*finally chooses*

*brings feather close to kitten's right foot. . .and gently tickles it*

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"J---?!! Damn you, you sadistic Irish son-of-a bitch."

* struggles, but can't defeat his bondage expertise *

* also can't help noting that he is growing hard again *

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*is frankly shocked at his kitten's foul mouth, and doesn't try to hide his disapproval*

*reacts swiftly, tickling her other foot. . .right on the most sensitive part of the sole*

*enjoys her helpless thrashing about*

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"aaah - ow - stop - J--- this isn't fair - stop it you bastard - don't give me that look!"

"J---!!!"

* struggles, writhes, wriggles, begs, pleads, despite knowing it's no use. refuses to submit. *

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*decides that if his little kitten is still cursing, his treatment must not be hard enough*

*turns his attention to her armpits*

*tickles her there, mercilessly*

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*screams furiously *

"no no no no no!!!"

"J---? J---!! please, J---, please, Master, please stop torturing me!!"

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*pauses, deciding whether to stop his torment, or continue*

*continues*

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* continues alternately screaming, begging, and cursing, not knowing what else to do and not being able to think straight anyway. And figuring he's going to do whatever he damn well pleases, no matter what she does. the downside to being a slave, not to mention being helplessly tied up. *

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*continues until her throat is raw from sceaming*

*stops to let her catch her breath*

*sharpens the feather, cutting it with a pair of scissors*

*starts on the clit*

*learns a whole new bunch of curse words, listening to his kitten*

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* suddenly gasps as her clit starts responding in spite of her. Stops cursing. starts rocking hips again *

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*enjoys the sight of his kitten enjoying herself. . . even if it is against her will (or maybe because it's against her will)*

*continues his work*

*let's kitten know that if she wants to cum, she will have to beg*

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* hates to give in and beg, especially after all the fuss she had been making *

* but loves to beg *

* and knows he loves making her beg, just as he loves tying her up, just as she loves being tied up *

* and in fact she would do anything to please him *

" J---? darling? Master?"

* whimpers and moans, can't help it *

"Master? please? pretty please? please let me cum. please... i'm trying very hard not to until you give permission but... oh god... it's becoming awfully hard for... ow! for me to keep from... uh! oh!... J---, PLEASE!!!"

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*considers carefully, stroking chin with index finger*

*denies permission*

*continues tickling*

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* is at her wits' end *

"Please, Master.
i am your kitten.
i am your slave.
please.
tell me what you want of me.
i will do anything.
not that i have a choice, since i am your slave.
i belong to you.
my body belongs to you.
my soul belongs to you.

PLEASE!! tell me what you want of me!!
i will submit."

* weeps in frustration *

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*unties his poor weeping kitten. . .but not our of tenderness or mercy*

After a bit of wrestling, has her tied up again, still spread eagle. .. but facing down this time*

*puts a pillow under her hips, causing her ass to thrust upwards*

*rummages under bed again, speculating out loud about the whereabouts of that purple dildo*

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[thinks - damn, working on his thesis sure brings out his evil streak, these are going to be a rough couple of chapters... good thing i like it when he's cruel... but still...]

"Shit! i mean, yes Master, whatever you want.
i am your ktiten.
i am your slave.
my body is yours to use and abuse as you wish.
but don't be surprised if the roof caves in when i cum again..."

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*lubes the dildo up good, letting his kitten watch*

*puts the very tip of the dildo between her buttocks*

*tells his kitten to count backwards from 5*

*when she reaches zero. . .THRUSTS*

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"OOOWWW!!!"

"J---!!!!!!"

"ow ow ow oh please, that hurts, it's too big, oh god, oh please, oh why are you so cruel to me, oh shit, whatever i did to deserve this, i'm sorry, i'm sorry..."

* weeps bitterly *

* then finds her ass is starting to move back against the thrusts of the purple monster, and the tears are joined by moans, and she is getting wetter again *

* he has defeated her once more *

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*fucks her ass, allowing his kitten to set the rhythm*

*smiles as he sees how much she enjoys it, all of it, the ropes the feather. . .the ravishing*

*when she is quite finished, having shouted her orgasm into the mattress, leans in close and whispers*

Who owns you, kitten?

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* sobbing (this is for real), she whispers back *

You own me, J---.
You do.
You know you do.

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*smiles (really)*

*unties his kitten*

*rubs her arms and legs, getting the circulation flowing again*

*takes her into the shower, soaps her up, rinses her off*

*dries her with a fluffy warm towel*

*helps her into her nightgown*

*put her to bed*

Get dressed, kitten. Put on your nightgown for real.

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can i get back into my clothes instead? i'd much rather put on my nightgown, but S. will be back any time and i'm supposed to be working on my chicken soup... there are a couple of pieces of chicken in the pot, but i have to get the rest of them in and the veggies and the water and render the chicken fat for chopped liver...

and oh my goodness, this was the most wonderful day... i DID feel like we were just being together for the longest time

you make me so happy that sometimes it scares me... but i wouldn't give it up for anything

don't ever forget that,

(damn, i forgot about calling my parents. all i could think of was that i was with you...)

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No bra, no panties.

I thought you had done the chicken soup; If I had known I would have insisted on its completion as a condition for orgasm.

Yes, this was a day well spent.

Go, cook, call your parents.

Talk to you tomorrow. . .

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no bra, no panties.

my parents will have to wait until tomorrow, it is late for them.

when things started heating up, i didn't want to interrupt the proceedings with talk of chicken soup. and i never thought it would go on this long. but it was lovely...

until tomorrow.

good night, Master.

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Good night, kitten.

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9:17 PM