A male friend, a fine writer, was speaking of his curiosity. I am poorly paraphrasing, I am protecting his privacy, I am protecting my privilege of access.
What? he wonders.
What does it feel like?
What does it feel like, he wonders, these sensations that you experience that physically I can never know?
I know these questions.
I've had them myself.
Especially when in bed with the woman I thought I was in love with.
My clitoris wanted to be a cock.
My clitoris thought it was a cock.
My clitoris wanted to fuck her.
It was very very frustrating.
As some of you may remember, we were both involved with the same man. We were both involved with S--. And it was all at a distance. I was with her, and she would be with him the following weekend, and I couldn't help thinking that he would be able to do with her, to her, what I couldn't.
He could fuck her.
He could take his thoroughly lovely cock and move it inside her.
I knew what it would feel like for her.
I knew exactly what it would feel like for her.
What would it feel like for him?
Like my friend, I'm always wanting to know what it's like for the other side. It obsesses me. I was always asking the philosopher, I was always asking blogging doms, what does it feel like?
I posted this to craigslist as well as here, both as a lure and as an honest attempt at exploration - and received a very special response.
But I want more.
What does it feel like to have a cock?
What does it feel like to be a cock?
What does it feel like to swell at the thought of me?
What does it feel like to swell when you read my words?
What does it feel like to swell at the sound of my moans in your phone?
What does it feel like to slide inside me?
What does it feel like to push inside me?
What does it feel like to cum inside me?
What does it feel like to want me?
I know what it feels like to want you.